Gahhhhh I need to be more hardworking... I'm never going to get 6 points at this rate!!! And then I won't need to think bout raffles or hwa chong already... But ugh I hate it when laziness sets in.. it just drags everything back..anyway, I feel very dumb now. As in because I don't really understand science, or.more of cos there's a lot to memorize, and I just can't absorb everything in 1 lesson.. for math, I can understand, but I just don't know when to apply what.. maybe practising more would help? I hope so, amd also hope that I have enough time.. I'm so sleepy right now.. 感觉上我好像要生病了。。再不睡，真的是会病倒。可是我没办法啊，有功课做。有时，我真希望你能了解我为何要做出这样的一个选择。可惜啊，我知道那一天不会来得那么容易。。啊啊啊我好坤啊~~ 希望我能变的得更用功，更喜欢读书。一个美丽的星期六又默默地走掉了，无踪无影了。时间，你未免过得太快了吧? 停下来，让我们喘得过气来吧! " " 正播放的: 礼物- 刘力杨(?) 和 等你- A-Lin

啊! 我的华语烂透了! 怎么办怎么办????? 对了。。。我最近再看we got married, nickhun 和 Victoria 的。。 啊真是的!!! 三个字: 太可爱。真是太可爱!!!!! 有个像'泰君'的老公有多么好!!! 可惜啊可惜。。以后还必须说声再见。。其实我还是挺觉得那部节目没良心，在捉弄人的心。。没有人能保证他们是否会爱上彼此。。万一，我是说万一真的爱上了呢，倒是该怎么办? 谁该负担所有的责任? 谨记公司也一定反对到底的吗。。啊。。做歌手的，命还真苦的。。而我只能在这儿说声加油吧!!!!!!!! Wuri hwaiting!!!!!


若今日星星给了我一个愿望，我能问你那道问题吗? 若那真的是我的命运，我想他会走到我面前敲我的门。那么我就会等到那一天吧。。 命运先生， 我这样做，对吧?

这一刻， 世界怎么会那么难面对呢? 有人能帮我建平吗? 有些事毛皮上似乎那么容已，但当日子慢慢过后，怎么仿佛变得更难了? 想改变，却没那能力，也没权利。时间真不等人。要面对那么多人? 对不起，恐怕我没那能力。想逃离现实，真的好想哦。。。 怎么给个交代，怎么忽略别人的评判? 我老是想不到答案。现在好想挖个洞来脱离现实。。 解救，会有人在我身旁吗? 你也许不会知道这种感觉吧? 还是不知吧。。命会松点儿。。。 祝我运吧。不是对不起，而是加油! 加油!

기억의 습작 ( A Study Of Memory) - Kyuhyun Cover

Now you say you can’t leave this
With an empty laughter, you lie on my shoulders
Even though you closed your eyes
You can speak
Your sad eyes go into my mind
Makes it hurt

Tell me
About your heart “thought”
If I can only go into it
However much my thoughtless appearance
It already left, if I may be

Many days pass and your “mind” gets tired
In my “heart” your memories faint
Come back searching for it, then I may remember
My future has grown too big to remember those dreams
Will my ever-increasing forgetting memories be remembered

Into your “mind”
If I can only go into it
However much my thoughless appearance
It already left, if I may be

Many days pass and your “mind” gets tired
In my “heart” your memories faint
Come back searching for it, then I may remember
My future has grown too big to remember those dreams
Will my ever-increasing forgetting memories be remembered

okay, i really have to say this very badly.. i have watched suju since 2007, and truthfully, i that wasnt attracted to them. yes, i respected them as entertainers, but not as singers. today, in the year 2011, i watched suju again by coincident. at first, i really couldnt get use to the style because it was so different from dong bang.. but after a while, i pressed the reply button again and again, it seems so addictive. and they gave this aura so different from dong bang. joy, laughter, sorrow, tears. i suddenly thought of the drastic difference in comparison with the year 2007 that i knew them. i was so touched by their hardwork and perseverance, how they endured all kinds of critics and biasness, yet still receiving so much of injustice. what is this? they may not have the best singers, but common, they each are very unique in their own very special ways, they have their own charms. do you really need to judge them and not put them in your eyes? they're humans afterall. we all have feelings, emotions wouldnt stop just because you say so. rubbish. they need a break, they need to feel victory. they need to be cherished. they are humans who took that extra step of giving up freedom and privacy just to pursue their passion. it's admirable, isnt it? have you ever thought of how you would feel if you were in their position? they've been through so many hardships that even a single performance and every single award, even if it is small, means so much more than words. they tear, or sometimes cry when they think bout their hardships. to me, you are in no position to judge or despise them.

"When no one acknowledged us, no one knew us, the best fanclubs in the world who made us the best.
As fans, they let us feel the “mightiness”. Our ELF, I sincerely thank you guys again.
We were ugly ducklings, and (until the day) we became swans," -Leeteuk's acceptance speech. 2011 MAMA

i dont know... i cant put my emotions in words.. everything is just so... i just want to say, these are the boys who pulled me through the darkest periods, made my day when i am down, made me cry because of their touching performance. i've seen it, and i thank God for all the miracles that happened on them. thank you God, thank you.

they are my inspiration, my role-model, and always a older brother that i can always look up to. because i know that they will never abandon me. they will be by my side, walking till i find that day.

ELF and CASSIE for life.

i saw this in some blog and i think that it's really meaningful.. THIS IS TO ALL CASSIES OUT THERE WHO PROBABLY READ THIS BY CHANCE.

"Damage caused by certain decisions may be permanent. But even the deepest scars fade over time until it is difficult to see them at all, and the only thing that will remain is the memory of how painful it had been. Your hearts may be in pain and torment and you may need someone to blame but try to remember what kept you going for so long. Hold onto that little hope no matter how fragile it might be because Cassiopeia will always exist as long as there is someone who will call themselves a Cassie"

to all cassies: is 2 years long compared to 7-8 years that they have accompanied us? think about it. is it worth it? i hope this gave you a little more hope. and if it did, pass it on.

THE FLAME OF A CASSIE WILL NOT EXTINGUISH BECAUSE ULTIMATELY, WE HAVE THAT SAME DESIRE, THAT SAME GOAL. it's the toughest moment now, but it is only when we go through hardships that we learn to cherish. remember that.

ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH.

yupp i'm back! gosh this week is seriously not giving me a break. scared the freaking hell outta me. they poked at least 3 needles into me>< but i survived!:) the people there are really really really nice.. i'll miss them.. anyways, i felt so insecure when i came back.. maybe it's cause there aren't any immediate solutions if something goes wrong again.. but ohh well it's still home! it was quite boring actually.. but thanks to Carren who texted throughout the day, it felt less boring:) YAY! MAMA WAN SUI! kekeke... anyways, my back still feels kinda weird whenever i bend back, sneeze or cough.. mannn i really hope it'll go away very very soon... and i hope i'll stop getting headaches just by walking a few steps. OH YA! and me is very HAPPY! cos i got my new leo!:))) (y) WOW i used to think that black leo that the seniors where is sooo cool and now i can wear it! SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT:)AND I MANAGE TO DO 2 SOLID ROUNDS WITH HEAD! SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT AGAIN:) i'm gonna make use of this last week and do well for exams:) yay LET'S GO!~~ happy b'dae papa, and happy father's day! know that i love you papa:D

JYJ- In Heaven

Wiping away the miracle of seeing you
I won’t be able to live on
Even when I’ve escaped from every dream
The first time I saw your image
It felt like i was drowning in the raindrops of this world

From where am I watching you?
Forever
Even if there’s regret, there’s really no way of seeing you
Memory of a shadow
Moistness of a name
It’s there in that little memory

I can’t do it, really can’t do it
It’s like you’re by my side
Not waiting, I’m not waiting anymore
I’ll try again to say something
I’ll try again to leave some memory
Walking in the dreamscape
In my footsteps
Afraid to close my eyes

Don’t go, don’t leave
Can’t you remain by my side
Lies, all are lies
I can’t hear anything
Love you, I love you
Can’t you see that from one single line
Love you, I love you
Will you love me again

So fast, you have already clean forgotten
the tracks of finding you have also disappeared

This last path, adheres closely to my tears
again I inch a little closer (again it’s about the same)

(I’ve also changed)
You’re not here by my side
I’m going to go now
I’m going to go
Now i’m going to follow your path
Follow an endless path
Going everywhere to find you
I’m afraid that losing her will bring sadness

Don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
I beg you, come back to me

don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again

i dont know why, but i keep associating their songs to homin.. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH<3