yupp i'm back! gosh this week is seriously not giving me a break. scared the freaking hell outta me. they poked at least 3 needles into me>< but i survived!:) the people there are really really really nice.. i'll miss them.. anyways, i felt so insecure when i came back.. maybe it's cause there aren't any immediate solutions if something goes wrong again.. but ohh well it's still home! it was quite boring actually.. but thanks to Carren who texted throughout the day, it felt less boring:) YAY! MAMA WAN SUI! kekeke... anyways, my back still feels kinda weird whenever i bend back, sneeze or cough.. mannn i really hope it'll go away very very soon... and i hope i'll stop getting headaches just by walking a few steps. OH YA! and me is very HAPPY! cos i got my new leo!:))) (y) WOW i used to think that black leo that the seniors where is sooo cool and now i can wear it! SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT:)AND I MANAGE TO DO 2 SOLID ROUNDS WITH HEAD! SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT AGAIN:) i'm gonna make use of this last week and do well for exams:) yay LET'S GO!~~ happy b'dae papa, and happy father's day! know that i love you papa:D

JYJ- In Heaven

Wiping away the miracle of seeing you
I won’t be able to live on
Even when I’ve escaped from every dream
The first time I saw your image
It felt like i was drowning in the raindrops of this world

From where am I watching you?
Forever
Even if there’s regret, there’s really no way of seeing you
Memory of a shadow
Moistness of a name
It’s there in that little memory

I can’t do it, really can’t do it
It’s like you’re by my side
Not waiting, I’m not waiting anymore
I’ll try again to say something
I’ll try again to leave some memory
Walking in the dreamscape
In my footsteps
Afraid to close my eyes

Don’t go, don’t leave
Can’t you remain by my side
Lies, all are lies
I can’t hear anything
Love you, I love you
Can’t you see that from one single line
Love you, I love you
Will you love me again

So fast, you have already clean forgotten
the tracks of finding you have also disappeared

This last path, adheres closely to my tears
again I inch a little closer (again it’s about the same)

(I’ve also changed)
You’re not here by my side
I’m going to go now
I’m going to go
Now i’m going to follow your path
Follow an endless path
Going everywhere to find you
I’m afraid that losing her will bring sadness

Don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
I beg you, come back to me

don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again

i dont know why, but i keep associating their songs to homin.. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH<3

wow... it has been more than a year.. keke:D the worst thing you could ever do is not understanding yourself, and not knowing yourselve. it has been 1 and a half months, and during this period of time i cant help but sometimes ask myself that question. but finally, and slowly, i'm digging out that self that i've hid for so long. it feels good:) closing up that distance, trying really hard to be me:)

this year has been more challenging than ever, esp during that period. but i'll still fight on. "there's no saying in how many miles you'll have to run to chase your dream."

going to mug tmr(: yeahh, and see a doctor too.. hope he doesn't say something bad...

anyways, HOW CAN SHE GET 98/100? WOW SHE AMAZING! my aim(: i'll try(:

i have awesome juniors and pro-cum-gay-cum-cool seniors and epic level peeps in my team to make training and sntf so CRAZY and FUN! i love training!(even when it's tough cos it gels us up!) i love SNTF! i love sprints! and lastly, I LOVE HIGH<3

FALLEN LEAVES- JYJ

the wind is blowing
a glowing of the sky
the fated 2 of us
even if it’s a distance away
the time passes
the spaces that passes by is long
it seems to be love
it seems to be longing
your smile
has captivated me
after the flowers have fallen
we will start all over again
if we walk on the fallen leaves
while we’re together
the lady who took my heart
I promise eternally
shimmering to the eyes
in the beautiful dream
seems like an ordeal has come
gone the darkness
come the morning
remain in the memory unaware
always towards you
my heart fills with tears
if we walk on the fallen leaves
while we’re together
the lady who took my heart
I promise eternally
shimmering to the eyes
in the beautiful dream
seems like an ordeal has come
under the same sky
we dream of the same dream
the brightness of the star’s lights’
this occassion captivated me
a song that will be sang someday
that day will come for sure
i will say I love you
with all my heart-felt feelings
the fear of the past
i will cherish it eternally
going towards the reality
even if I can’t see you
I will come back for you
seems like it’s love
seems like it’s longing
your smile
has captivated me
after the flowers have fallen,
start over again
start over again
start over again

*it seems like a love song, but it's not. that's what i like bout it(: